( she thinks about asking august, will you take me out when thereβs time? maybe a kind of optimistic approach β they locked up saber, and he woke up missing a head. guilt churns in her. what if august is the next one waking up, missing parts? what if they did that to him? )
yeah. letβs do it. count on me for mashed potatoes π«‘ what do you like to eat? iβll see if i can scrounge some stuff up
[ she's been agonizing over that possibility - wants so deeply for august to have something happy and loving to carry in his memory when they drag him away, even if it's the last time they see each other for a while. she can't fix it, no one can fix it. but maybe they can make something good grow from the cracks of what's been broken. ]
sounds lovely maybe some chicken? we'll make him work on the gravy, he's the expert
[ Everything she's seen from Buffy, it's β noble. She wants the best for everyone here.
Ironic that both of them ended up accusing their boyfriend in different rounds. ]
i want you to know that despite everything i said about august and the hellhound's attack i forgave him a long time ago and i don't blame him for what happened back then or now
( this is new. the kind of β un-competition of being with the same person. it's just that it's functionally impossible to not love cellar immediately, at least a little bit. she's the sweetest. )
i know
( or she can assume. buffy didn't vote august because she hates him βΒ very much the opposite. )
i don't blame him either. i guess it was hard, when giles died. i wasn't really thinking clearly. but now? it doesn't feel right to get mad at the wolves, not if they can't control it, not if something is making them. we should be feeling bad for them. and if august is one of them βΒ then i really feel bad, for how hard it's going to hit him. he always says he knows evil. i guess sometimes i think he's talking about himself, you know?
i know i still think about the people who died and i hate whoever hurt my friends maybe i shouldn't but i still do i just don't want that to become a part of the cycle if we can stop more people from dying, we can stop more people from hating, too
he is talking about himself, i mean i wish he wasn't i wish we could show him that he's wrong
it's like when sometimes you have a sickness saying you have it is different than saying it's what you are i don't think he knows the difference maybe one day we can show him
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( she thinks about asking august, will you take me out when thereβs time? maybe a kind of optimistic approach β they locked up saber, and he woke up missing a head. guilt churns in her. what if august is the next one waking up, missing parts? what if they did that to him? )
yeah. letβs do it.
count on me for mashed potatoes π«‘ what do you like to eat? iβll see if i can scrounge some stuff up
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sounds lovely
maybe some chicken?
we'll make him work on the gravy, he's the expert
[ we love u gus ]
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youβre a really good girlfriend, cellar. heβs lucky.
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he's lucky he has you β₯
[ Everything she's seen from Buffy, it's β noble. She wants the best for everyone here.
Ironic that both of them ended up accusing their boyfriend in different rounds. ]
i want you to know that
despite everything i said about august and the hellhound's attack
i forgave him a long time ago
and i don't blame him for what happened
back then or now
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i know
( or she can assume. buffy didn't vote august because she hates him βΒ very much the opposite. )
i don't blame him either. i guess
it was hard, when giles died. i wasn't really thinking clearly. but now?
it doesn't feel right to get mad at the wolves, not if they can't control it, not if something is making them. we should be feeling bad for them. and if august is one of them βΒ then i really feel bad, for how hard it's going to hit him.
he always says he knows evil. i guess sometimes i think he's talking about himself, you know?
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i still think about the people who died and i hate whoever hurt my friends
maybe i shouldn't but i still do
i just don't want that to become a part of the cycle
if we can stop more people from dying, we can stop more people from hating, too
he is
talking about himself, i mean
i wish he wasn't
i wish we could show him that he's wrong
it's like when sometimes you have a sickness
saying you have it is different than saying it's what you are
i don't think he knows the difference
maybe one day we can show him