( pausing. thinking. buffy's inclination is always to handle the world falling apart on her own, by herself βΒ but she knows august is strong, capable, and more importantly that he wants to help. she's not one to look a gift horse in the mouth. )
okay here's the low-down. angel used to be a vampire with a soul, which meant he was a lot nicer. kind of ... broody. that was the angel i fell in love with. but there's some kind of curse around him, that one moment of true happiness takes his soul away. so
i mean, that happened. the night i lost my virginity to him. yes, i know, har har. my pussy turns people evil. that's why i was so careful with you the first time. anyway that's what he is now. soulless vampire. he's not going to hesitate to hurt anyone, so if he did something to you, you have to tell me.
( you don't turn anyone evil has not been her lived experience. or maybe β less she doesn't turn people evil, more she doesn't make anyone better. like, a leech, or something. buffy is so dark, so sad, she soaks up all the goodness in everyone else, until there's nothing left.
it's why the watchers are always saying she should be alone, disconnected, without attachments. safer. better. someplace where you can't hurt anyone else, buffy. )
what did it say? if he's making moves i have to go after him. it won't be hard. i've done it before.
[august thinks about lying to her. a younger version of him would have stopped the conversation before it started, bypassing communication to go straight to the source. this is likely what angel wants, to sow doubt somewhere in their relationship. to test it.]
no, this is between us. i told you he reached out and that's all i'm going to tell you.
[the contents of the letter aren't words he wants buffy to read, not when she already thinks she's the worst of the worst.]
( she sits with it, for a second. tries not to feel like a door is shutting in her face βΒ though if that was truth of it, august wouldn't have told her in the first place. so this is ... she's not sure. the content was awful, or personal. not something he wants buffy to know about, whether it's about her or about him. or βΒ something else? she's not really good on the logical aspects of thought, more punch first and speak never in mentality. so. )
we're not in the commune anymore. angel can't touch me.
[the thought is sweet. he thinks highly of buffy, but he doesn't want her to get caught in a web of his own making. he told her because she's involved with him, and angel is involved with herβ was, technically, but he seems in the mood to paint a target on his back.]
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vampire.
( pausing. thinking. buffy's inclination is always to handle the world falling apart on her own, by herself βΒ but she knows august is strong, capable, and more importantly that he wants to help. she's not one to look a gift horse in the mouth. )
okay here's the low-down. angel used to be a vampire with a soul, which meant he was a lot nicer. kind of ... broody. that was the angel i fell in love with. but there's some kind of curse around him, that one moment of true happiness takes his soul away. so
i mean, that happened. the night i lost my virginity to him. yes, i know, har har. my pussy turns people evil. that's why i was so careful with you the first time. anyway
that's what he is now. soulless vampire. he's not going to hesitate to hurt anyone, so if he did something to you, you have to tell me.
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you don't turn anyone evil.
[if anything, it's the other way around. but he's not going into that.]
he left a note, i left him one back.
don't get involved in what he's trying to do to me. i don't want him knowing i told you.
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it's why the watchers are always saying she should be alone, disconnected, without attachments. safer. better. someplace where you can't hurt anyone else, buffy. )
what did it say? if he's making moves i have to go after him.
it won't be hard. i've done it before.
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no, this is between us.
i told you he reached out and that's all i'm going to tell you.
[the contents of the letter aren't words he wants buffy to read, not when she already thinks she's the worst of the worst.]
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i just don't want something to happen to you
( because of me. )
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[the thought is sweet. he thinks highly of buffy, but he doesn't want her to get caught in a web of his own making. he told her because she's involved with him, and angel is involved with herβ was, technically, but he seems in the mood to paint a target on his back.]
think you'll need a hound? they don't sleep.